Life of a familiar girl!

You are a happy person, and you say this to yourself every day. You are lucky enough to eat three meals a day and, by the end of the day, sleep in a comforting bed. You pray to God to give peace to every soul on the earth. But you are an ordinary girl.

You used to get up at 5 am, but now your mornings are evenings, and sometimes they are a night. This messy situation has, though, turned your life upside down, splitting you away from who you are, but anyway, you feel obliged.

You are that girl who has tried to go to the clubs but somehow ended up roaming in the garden and looking at the stars. You would love to wear tattered jeans with splashes of your painting colours, and there is no reason for it but just that it came in your hand while you were searching for your formals with sharply pressed corners which made you look like a serious lady.

You constantly change the topics when politics comes up because you see people supporting rapists and those dead British souls who helped and followed "Divide and rule."

But every time you made a lousy joke, you smite few people. They know the wit before anyone can see and laugh hard till they cry. They know that you can listen, and they are not used to people like you, but they don't know you have grown up around people who were like you, and you know how hard it is for someone to find a person who can listen.

You are supposed to be someone's daughter, sister, wife, mother, and so on, but you are not sure when you are going to be yourself.

Is it too hard to be a girl, a human?

You have felt this tremendous burden and responsibility of not going out for late nights; otherwise, the world would take you wrong. No matter how young she was, the little girl had a responsibility to always do house chores, a suitable match who was untouched and put on makeup and vermilion for her better half. Women are the only person a child will look up to until they start school and eat regular human food. Ah! So many responsibilities.

Is it a blessing in disguise or otherwise?

So, please don't feel bad if sometimes you lash out because most of the time you are not supposed to, and you can't.

Do you have any idea we have expectations from you?

Expectations that you are going to take the right decision though we didn't.

Now, here you are! Successful... ha ha ha

You see a person who harasses, treats you wrong and looks bright in front of everyone. How can you say that he is not right? Even after being so wrong, he has the guts to stand in front of everyone and prove that you are wrong and that it's a mistake, it was your delusion, and one must leave these small, worthless things away. After all, this is how people see and believe things. You told about this to the people you trusted, and they said," It's an old story. Make sure the work is not hampered." You thought, "I know sir, It's an old story, but still, I try every time. Maybe I will get a person who will understand one day that what we have here is a mess."

Then some people say that we genuinely like you, but they have known you for two days. They say anyone can fall for you though you are pretty sure they mean it because of your looks. Your honesty answers them back, stating good luck in finding the right partner. You have heard this line a hundred times, and now you feel dressing right is more important than behaving right. But, every morning, your mind resets, and you are your true self again.

This world shouts at you and tells you that it is not good to work on your passions and rights, no right to be intelligent and wise when in the end you are going to be objectified. And that for every shout, there is going to be 101 men looking at you with those filtered eyes who have experienced their mum and sisters being objectified since they were born and will tell you, "Go, girl! You don't stand a chance."

You are tired of proving yourself now. It seems like you are the only one in the journey of those hundred women, and you are the only one who is cutting your hours out of your life and risking the health of your better half and family to support something which is not worth to you anymore and perhaps will never be now.

So my dear, knowing you still have possibilities is a luxury, knowing that the world might have given it to you indirectly a precious gift. That's why you can't be tied.

Somehow after this day, you are in peace. 😊